Where have I been?

I gave up for awhile, only to find a new strength. Still struggling from day to day, but I'm going to make it this time.

I got a wii active for christmas and I have done 3 days so far....boy am I SORE! I absolutely love this game! I feel like it is something that I can and will accomplish!

I started cutting back a little on the day after Christmas. weight: 221.5. Yesterday, was down to 219 and that is from just cutting back a little. I was still being tempted by some cookies laying around so this morning, i threw it all away!
It is so hard, but I know that with the Lord's help, i can do it. My goal is to lose 8 lbs by the end of Jan 2010. I set a weight loss of around 2 lbs a week and i think that is manageable. I'm trying to focus on small changes.

I'll keep you posted on my weight. I checked out Amy's blog and boy does she look amazing! She has lost 34 lbs! Her regimen is different than mine. I want to make small changes and do something that I can stick wtih and make permanent. cutting out sweets entirely is not fair to myself and will set me up to completely fail. I've just got to learn moderation!

What can I say?

I had a TERRIBLE day! It was long, I was bored. We are very slow at work....the economy has now started to affect us and it makes for long days. I ate a very bad lunch and then was still STARVING 2 hours later! I have eaten all afternoon and all evening. I am miserable.

I wonder why we have days like this? Why does hunger hit so hard, so strong? It's just not fair for those of us with food addictions. I mean, we have to eat....we can't just avoid food like an alcoholic avoids alcohol. We have to have food to live.
It is almost 9 pm and i have brushed my teeth, trying to starve off any more chances of polishing down any more Hershey's kisses......

Not so good

I have not done so well the past few days. I thought about stopping my posts for awhile until I can get enough strength and motivation to start over. I keep having set-backs:::business of the christmas rush, not feeling well, etc. But, if I stop posting, I'll stop trying. At least I do have good intentions when I get up....I just fail somewhere in each day.

I WILL DO THIS! It make time some time, and several days/weeks of failure...but I realize that I am beginning this journey at a VERY BAD TIME!

I am scared, lonely, tired, discouraged, but

"If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer.>>Matthew 21:22

I'll keep praying and believing that the LORD will give me strength, HE will help me do this....I've just got to have more patience and more self-control...which at this point---only HE can provide!